I know I loved angsty Derek but happy Derek blew him out of the water tonight. Ok so the appearance of the razor was painful for me, but the elevator scene took it away completely. I might even become a fan of barefaced Derek who knows ;-)

I was so worried the proposal would be cheesy but it was so original and perfect for Meredith. VERY HAPPY.

There is nothing to say that hasn't been squeed over already but I this ep pretty redeemed everyone for me. Bailey, Alex, Izzie, even the Chief (?!) Ok, I'm feeling very generous. I'm not so excited about the fact that they're engaged as the fact they love each other so fricking much and it's trueeelooove you guys! I could go on and on but I won't. The end. I'm stopping now.(justonemorethinghowcuteisittheysupporteachotherbeingdarkandtwistytheyaresomeanttobe!) Seriously I'm done, I swear.

I need to find a derek in ferryboats scrub cap icon stat.

I am a very bad girl. I am way behind on posting for Teach me (some more) Tonight on Grey's Mcboard. I think Derek needs to discipline me(?!) I will get this fic done if it kills me! I hate leaving things unfinished. I do find it kinda hard work though to do such long fics, it may but one-shots only for me after this!

But I have almost finished my mystery Summer Fling Challenge fic for Surgical Language.I think it's ok to say I'm taking part, as long as I don't say which one is mine. To be honest it's not my favourite thing that I've written, but I'm glad to be taking part there cause I don't spend much time on that board, and it's a good introduction.

I'm still kinda in open mouthed awe from this ep. I'm just gonna think about the Mer/Der bits for now cause that's all my brain can cope with.

Derek on the couch eating cereal with bare feet in a jumper with scruffy hair? Hello new kink!

Derek drunk with baseball bat and even going to the very dark place of hitting the ring his mom gave him to give to Meredith? Beautifully angsty.

I know some people are like evilderekwtf?! But I LOVE HIM. I can't help it. I think it's because Patrick Dempsey manages to give a multi-layered performance so when even acting mean to Mer you totally get it's only because he's hurting so badly and seeing how far he can push her. It's classic psychoanalysis yo, i'm sure there's a book written about it somewhere.

Next week? More angst followed this time by kissing. That would be just awesome.

Title: Facts about tequila
Pairing: Derek character, Derek/Meredith
Rating: R but really only for language
Disclaimer: These characters are property of Shonda Rhimes/ABC and Grey's Anatomy. They do not belong to me. Reimbursement is not received for fictitious works.
A/N: So I wrote this after 5x16 but didn't finish it cause I got distracted. Now I'm bored and waiting for 5x17 to download so I thought why not. I hate to leave Derek hanging after all.


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God. How beautiful is fucked up Derek? Patrick Dempsey deserves some major credit for this ep. The show was finally back on gripping form. I couldn't take my eyes off it.

It was great all round really but I have to say... DEREK. Was he this deep this whole time? Was he suffering from god complexes and inner torment about death this whole time? Was he so broken and needing Meredith and her tequila? If he was I would I liked to have seen a little more of it this season.

It makes me love his character even more if that is possible. Because it's not straight forward. He's the Derek who loves trout fishing and being outdoors, he's the ridiculously romantic and eternally optimistic divorcee who still has faith in marriage. He's the angry and sometimes jealous and also arrogant Shepherd Method. And now, he's the so empathetic he's suffering, beating up his best friend because that's the only person strong enough to take it, tequilla drinking, crying human being. (I want to say poor baby but I sound like a fangirl. Poor baby!)

For me, in this ep we finally got the payoff from when he met Meredith. It's not just for the happy and the shiny smirking sex he needs her, THIS IS WHY THEY ARE TOGETHER.

*being immature* I am in love with PD's eyelashes.

I'm sorry. I don't care how many serial killers were around,there is NO WAY I would have pushed off that Derek 'i'm gonna throw my briefcase down and kiss you now' Shepherd.

Just had to get that off my chest.

Other than that still in tears over Meredith/Ellen's acting. Sad that Izzie is ill, glad denny is gone. And very happy that Christina and Mer are friends again.

Plus...I fricking love Owen. I was saying YES long before Christina did lol.

EDIT: I forgot poor Mark and his penis. He had sad hair. It made me want to cuddle him.

Title: Ten song challenge
Pairing: Various, stated below
Rating: R for language and sexual situations
Disclaimer: These characters are property of Shonda Rhimes/ABC and Grey's Anatomy. They do not belong to me. Reimbursement is not received for fictitious works.
A/N: Ok, some of these might seem long but I swear I did them within the song limit (the only thing I checked over afterwards was spelling cause my spelling sucks). I just seem to be able to spew free-fall nonsense quite easily!
Respect to: a_bemused_muse and nursebadass for starting this fun challenge

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Okaaay...I was happily doing my patented 'punchy fists into the air' dance for
Love is a battlefield, then I looked up and found my neighbour watching me through the window.
Yeah, that was embarrassing!